My Early Childhood Experiences with the Church
I would like to give y'all a countenance of what took place last night. It was very healing yet extremely powerful for me to do what I made myself to do. I was on a friends scope and they were playing the movie The Under Shepherd and it is about a black church where there were sexual sins and he was abusive to the women and the other different dynamics that went on. I was sexually traumatized by my father and his deacons and elders and made to get two abortions by the time I was 14 years old. I realized that sin is not a respector of persons and sin is sin. As I was watching the movie I had many different emotions from anger to rage to crying. I realized that I no longer have to use devices to escape from it. I faced it once in my life! ONLY God could have given me the courage to sit through it to the end. I have been carrying the guilt,shame and remorse myself for so long. I saw the arrogance and the ego from the movie. Anything run on ego is edging God out and God is good ...